Tuesday, November 27, 2007 - 12:44 AM
its 12:48 am but i just can't sleep, i awoke to the cold sweat dripping down my back,only to realise that fear had gotten the better of me...its as if the devil himself had grip over my weakness exploiting me in it, but yet again i told myself, how could it be, the dream just seemed too real, its surrealness kept it alive in my mind, and like a broken record player it just went on,over and over again, each time i closed my eyes...
i dared not sleep, fearing the fear would grip me again,oh how i wish it would go away, this near insanity feeling, it was just too much for me to take, thus its taking its toll on me....
i want to appologise,for i'm just too stubborn i guess, i can't comprehand it, i wish i could,but i guess i'm just too lousy to even grasp the slightest idea of it, and i do really hate myself for it, for my stubborness has caused you discomfort, and anger.....
i !$$%ing hate myself
